Saturday, October 11, 2008

Today we got up early and went to the YMCA yard sale and to a few local yard sales as well. Brett did not have to be in to work until 12:00 so he was able to go with us! It was nice getting to spend some of my Saturday with him! He is at work now...and he'll be gone until the wee hours of the morning (around 5:30 am) :( . He is taking a bunch of USF students to "channel side"-they rented the big "bus" from 11:00pm-4:00am. Anyhoo-I miss him when he is not home! The kids really miss him!!! It seems "Mom" is just not as much fun as "Dad" these days :( . Brett always gets out in the front yard with them and plays. I DID go out for a little while last night........I just can not "play" like I used to could. Soon though........soon!

I have been dealing with some depression lately-I am not sure what that is all about- to be honest. I read online that it can be a side effect from the anesthesia and it can stay in my system for up to 6 months!! I guess the longer that a person is "under" the longer it takes for your body to recover. Goodness knows I was under long enough (9 hours for the surgery and it took me a long time after that to wake up)!! So, I am not sure if it is related to that, or if it is related to not being able to "DO" all that I want to/need to do. I am just praying it passes soon! Depression has derailed my WW program this week....really, there are NO excuses. I just tend to make poor choices when I do not feel well-but the key word is "choices". It really is all about choices-we all have choices to make-regardless of our circumstances, now don't we? I suppose I could say that about the depression too-although, I really do feel like it may be a physical problem rather than an emotional one. I feel less pain than before my surgery (most days-not all) so I do feel hopeful for my future for the first time in years!! Anyway-it may be the "sugar" kicking in now that is causing me to ramble on.....
Just keep praying for me-I am sure that I will come out the other side of this soon! And, even though I went way over my "points" this week-I did still track them and I have "jumped back on the wagon" again-I refuse to give up!!

1 comment:

Jennie said...

Love your new blog look. Sorry you've been feeling down. Let me know if still need any help with anything or if you just want some company one day.